Jan 1, 2015

Starting right here; Happy New Year.

It's been over a year since I last blogged.  I used to rely on my blog to take notes, share fun things, and keep a log of events that I'd print at the end of the year.  I've missed it!

A lot has happened since that post.  In my head, I've written this post a dozen times, but I've never typed it.  Doing that would make it real and all I really want to do is pretend that the last year and a half didn't happen... but I know better.  There has been beauty in that time period.  It's been raw and ugly, but there have also been many answers to prayer.  There have been things I didn't connect until only recently and while I know we aren't meant to know God's intentions and plans, the hints along the way have made trusting Him grow our mustard seed exponentially.  

I made a video.  It seemed to be the easiest way to sum up why I disappeared from social media - and really, most social functions in general.  There were long days and lots of tears.  There were also amazing friends.  The kind you call and cry to when they can't understand your words.  The kind that realize you've not been given the correct Rx and call in what you need.  The kinds that send cards, flowers, and care packages when the bad seems to keep stacking up... 

Things could have been so much harder and when I step back, I feel silly and dramatic because families all over the world deal with much, much worse.  Our storm was nothing in comparison.  But that doesn't take away the fear, the anxiety, or the unknown.  Thanks for hanging with me and for simply being there when I was not.

(Video link.  If you follow me on IG you saw the short version.)

I kind of adore JJ Heller.  She and her husband, Dave, wrote and posted this video today.  It's the perfect way to end this... or rather, begin.  :)

This year.... 

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"Sometimes I'd like to ask God why He allows poverty, famine, and injustice in the world when He could do something about it, but I'm afraid God would ask me the same question."
You don't change the world by trying to change the world; you change the world by changing yourself.
-Gerry Straub